Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Nezha's Folly(?)
Or Why Nezha hasnt been posting lately

Last year, december I was offered another job. The pay, compared to what I was making right now was real good. Only thing is, it was in another country.

The job was in japan. So I had to think carefully. Whould my family like it there? Can they stand the weather? Particularly winter, as my own country exists in a perpetual state of summer. And what about the kids.. will they be able to make friends there? I dont want them growing up isolated and developing character disorders. Dont want to be raising serial killers now would we.. yep, woudlnt want that at all..

But in most cases, all these concerns was overidden by the blinding power of the dollar (in this case the yen). I mean, the salary was 5x what I was making now. What was I to do, turn it down? 5x salary? A chance to provide my family with a real life. I wouldnt get rich or something, but comfortable. Yeah, comfortable enough to buy my children things I wasnt able to buy myself.

But I wasnt sure, see. I was supervisor here. I order people around. Not used anymore to taking no orders. And what if I became miserable there? the money is good, but I dont want to die emotionally. It just doesnt feel right.

In the end, I wasnt sure enough and cant decide quick enough that the negotiations fell through.

But this emotional roller coaster ride took its toll. I didnt have the strenght nor the inclination to do anything else like chess or even guitar. and one day, I just woke up and felt nothing. Nothing at all regarding chess. The exploits of Topalov, the crazines of Morozovich, and his girlfriend (hehe), all these things that mattered to me before, it doesnt seem to matter now.

Maybe I was cured of the virus?

I dont know, but until it comes back I dont think I can post so often or play so often anymore.

I hope you understand.
posted by Nezha at 6:46 PM | Permalink |


  • At 8:45 PM, Blogger Edwin 'dutchdefence' Meyer

    Untill you do... Good luck! And good fortune!

  • At 2:23 AM, Blogger Temposchlucker

    Is there a relation between ambition and progress in the area's chess and guitar?

  • At 8:17 AM, Blogger Blue Devil Knight

    Thanks for the update, and sorry to hear you've lost some of your spark. It happens to all of us periodically.

    Chess is indeed a pernicious disease. I look forward to my cure, which will be reaching 1200. :)

  • At 2:01 PM, Blogger Pawn Sensei

    I'm sorry to hear about your troubles. I hope things look up in your future. I also hope all is well with your family.


  • At 11:50 AM, Blogger CelticDeath

    BDK, no, no, no, son...1200 just gets your palate wet. Next, it'll be 1400, then 1600, then before you know it you're facing Nakamura, and he plays 2. Qh5....

  • At 9:30 PM, Blogger NewVasyuki

    Japan and India I would like to visit the countries, but to live no
    I hope you give me chance win you in near future
    Regards LLIAMAH

  • At 12:00 AM, Blogger JavaManIssa

    I can understand chess can be an on/off thing at times. I'm sure you'll get back to it soon enough. Besides, you've reached heaven (>1800) now which is an achievement really. You should still play, just less regularly than before -- atleast until you get that feeling again ;).

    Best regards, java

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